Dear babies,
I just watched both of you sleep for a minute and gave you a kiss on the forehead to let you know that I love you so much. I’m sorry for being “mean” today. I didn’t want to be.
But sometimes it’s hard, and I can only hope that one day you’ll understand.
It’s just, when you’re both throwing tantrums at the same time, it’s a lot to handle. And when you don’t eat your food all day into the next, I get so worried. I feel like I’ve failed you when I put you to bed at night without eating a proper meal.
The thing is, I tried. I tried so hard to get you to eat all day long. So, I do get frustrated with you, but only because I’m concerned about your health.
Today was a bad day. Daddy worked all day, so it was just the three of us- We laughed, but we also cried. We cried a lot.
You threw every meal I worked hard on for you onto the floor. And this is something you do almost every day. And maybe I was too hard on you by forcing you into a time-out, which made you cry, but I didn’t know what else to do. I hope you forgive me.
Tonight I laid in your crib with you because I felt bad for how our day went. I hope it made up for it.
I mean, we did have some good moments. We played, went for a nice walk, and ran around in the backyard. I even let you ride on my back. I try so hard. I just hope you notice.
I love you so much, that sometimes it comes off the wrong way.
And I’m sorry for that.
But I’ll always love you. And I’ll always be proud of EVERYTHING you do.
I promise to never let you go to bed thinking I’m upset with you, and more importantly, you’ll never go to bed without knowing how much I love and care for you.
Love,
Your #1 fan,
Mama